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It’s the small wins

"It's not even particularly that I think people hate me. I just cannot be alone. It drives me insane. Had such a nice evening but walk into the house alone and just break down and I don't understand. I need my meds back. This is absolute torture. Agony." I started writing that a couple of… Continue reading It’s the small wins

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The whole world collapsing

Something so small, and the entire world collapses in on me, like a star imploding in my chest and darkness spreading from there. The pain is physical. As if my heart is breaking in every one of my nerve endings over and over again. I can't breathe. I can just cry and think and obsess… Continue reading The whole world collapsing

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Desperate to feel something – how dissociation can leave me falling apart

(TW: this post contains explicit mention of self-harm behaviour and thoughts, please do not read if this content is likely to trigger you <3) Dissociation is probably the strangest and scariest feeling (or non-feeling) I have ever experienced, and unfortunately, I experience it often. It is as if one minute I am there and the… Continue reading Desperate to feel something – how dissociation can leave me falling apart

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I will discuss my mental health however I like and if you don’t like it you can, frankly, f*** off: An open letter to everyone

Over the years of posting openly about my mental health online I have had all sorts of different opinions thrown my way. Mostly positive, yes, which is great - but it seems that there’s always people out there that like to try and police or shame the way I might do things. So I’m here… Continue reading I will discuss my mental health however I like and if you don’t like it you can, frankly, f*** off: An open letter to everyone